Just logging into my blog brings on the guilt - GOSH do I SUCK.
Blogging about SJ monthly? HA - she's 10 months old and my last update was month 3. WHOOPS.
Thought I could keep up with the letter board... HA I missed month 7.... and Month 9.... and honestly if I don't do month 10 tomorrow - ain't happening.
I find myself recording her constantly, or thinking "I need to snap a pic of this, I don't want to forget it." I'm so thankful for time-hop, social media, and an online journal that hopefully will be around for a while. I had good intentions of doing a monthly photo book - thinking that would be easier than scrap booking and would take less time so I'd be sure to do it. HA. Not.
It's interesting, before you have kids you kinda live in the moment, or you think you do. As a parent you want to soak in every moment and stretch them out as best you can.
Pause she is now almost a year old and I still didn't even finish this BLOG.
It's super easy to feel like such a failure all the time when it comes to Momming or even just living now days. Our world is one where our lives are posted online - Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram, soooo many places to share wonderful things, but soooo many places for Satan to whisper lies of inadequacy. Whispers that cause you to compare your life to someone else's picture reel - someone else's posed moments.
My heart lately has been so convicted about that.
My priorities are out of whack.
First and foremost, I must seek Jesus.
After Jesus I must strive to be the wife God has called me to be.
Then my focus must be on mothering my kids.
But if FIRST I seek Jesus with everything, the rest will just fall into place.
In 2019 I want to do a few things.
FIRST - Be intentional about BEING with Jesus. I don't want to shoot prayers off like arrows without really reveling in the presence of the God who paid it all to know me personally.
SECOND - I want to LOVE my husband well. I want to encourage, love unconditionally, and always show honor, grace, and mercy to the man God created for me.
THIRD - I wanna MOM HARD. As hard as I can. I want to love my kids fiercely, discipline them fairly, and disciple them rightly to the best of my ability.
When those three things are happening the way they should be (not perfectly but with great effort) anything else I want to accomplish will be extra.
Some other goals for this year...
1. Grow professionally in the business I've been placed - Further my education, gain more licensing, lead well.
2. Grow in knowledge and understanding of how to live more holistically -
- This is going to walk hand in hand with the next goal of growing my Young Living Business. I also say that lightly because the ultimate goal is to share the GOOD that I have found for my own family with other families around me.
- To switch our products with those that are non toxic and safer for everyone in my house.
- To focus on our health and go further on the path to wellness. Doctors and Medicine surely have a time or a place - but I'd love to prevent as many visits as possible with natural remedies.
- Get into a wellness routine
- Learn what supplements I may need to help where I'm lacking.
4. PAY OFF some debt.
5. Finish up our Garage Gym and WORK OUT regularly.
6. Get up to my alarm everyday..the FIRST time it goes off.
7. Be intentional about journaling for my kids.
8. Be able to financially bless a family in need with Christmas next year.
9. Memorize at least 15 new scriptures.
I think that's about it.. there's a ton of things that I feel like I want to do but the Lord keeps whispering that when He comes first and foremost, the goals that align with His will are going to show up and out this year. He knows the desires of my heart - I can trust Him to do this along with me as I cling to Him and am obedient to all He asks of me.
Short little blog today - another goal is to share more but I'm not putting it on my list, HA. We'll just see how it goes.
Much love.
