Rough Day.

Today hasn't been the easiest of days...I've felt very heavy and bogged down. My head hurts, everything everyone says annoys me, I feel like I've accomplished nothing, and everyone is talking about the Royal Wedding that I didn't watch....which just adds to my annoyance.

Here and there I have a day like today....A day where everything is bad, a day where I feel like I am being reminded constantly that things aren't the way I had planned originally, a day that just hurts all over like a headache in my heart. Ugh.

Reading older posts, I recognize that I have an issue with relinquishing control -- Who doesn't?
Trying to control leaves me exhausted.

Isaiah 40:29-31 States "He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint."

When I read these verses the part about "even young men will fall in exhaustion" really got me. I'm young, I guess I consider myself a being that is ever-refreshing, not dependant on rest and renewing. But by nature I am weak and in need of constant renewing, not just physically but spiritually and emotionally as well.
Jesus is my source of renewing.

Even with a lot of sleep, I am not able to renew myself....true renewal is found only when it comes through Christ, Jesus.

We are inadequate to supply all of our needs.
I forget how blessed I am to have a Father who willingly takes care of every need.

In all reality our inadequacy is a blessing, training us to rely wholeheartedly on him.

Jesus,

I'm inadequate. I need YOU completely. I'm sorry I hold onto too much and don't seek you enough. Father, continue to allow me to be tired when I don't seek your face for renewal. I can't do this on my own, I can't do life on my own. Remind me of that fact daily. You, my Jesus are all sufficient...and are the answer to every need. Don't let me forget that. Thank you, thank you, thank you, for loving me enough to carry the weight of the word on your shoulders so I don't have to break mine.

I love you.
Amen.

Incredible.

God is awesome.

Plain and simple.

I think a lot of the time, we forget about how much our Creator truly love us. Bottom line, we're sinful beings yet HE made a way that we could join him in Heaven. It's simple but we make it complicated. All he asked us for was submission, and why wouldn't we submit? He sees not just the 'bigger' picture, but the entire picture in general....he came to give us not just life, but an abundant life.

So submit, He loves you.
Unclench your fists and open your hands, give your life up to your Creator, and I promise you'll be fufilled!