Today hasn't been the easiest of days...I've felt very heavy and bogged down. My head hurts, everything everyone says annoys me, I feel like I've accomplished nothing, and everyone is talking about the Royal Wedding that I didn't watch....which just adds to my annoyance.
Here and there I have a day like today....A day where everything is bad, a day where I feel like I am being reminded constantly that things aren't the way I had planned originally, a day that just hurts all over like a headache in my heart. Ugh.
Reading older posts, I recognize that I have an issue with relinquishing control -- Who doesn't?
Trying to control leaves me exhausted.
Isaiah 40:29-31 States "He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint."
When I read these verses the part about "even young men will fall in exhaustion" really got me. I'm young, I guess I consider myself a being that is ever-refreshing, not dependant on rest and renewing. But by nature I am weak and in need of constant renewing, not just physically but spiritually and emotionally as well.
Jesus is my source of renewing.
Even with a lot of sleep, I am not able to renew myself....true renewal is found only when it comes through Christ, Jesus.
We are inadequate to supply all of our needs.
I forget how blessed I am to have a Father who willingly takes care of every need.
In all reality our inadequacy is a blessing, training us to rely wholeheartedly on him.
Jesus,
I'm inadequate. I need YOU completely. I'm sorry I hold onto too much and don't seek you enough. Father, continue to allow me to be tired when I don't seek your face for renewal. I can't do this on my own, I can't do life on my own. Remind me of that fact daily. You, my Jesus are all sufficient...and are the answer to every need. Don't let me forget that. Thank you, thank you, thank you, for loving me enough to carry the weight of the word on your shoulders so I don't have to break mine.
I love you.
Amen.
Taylor, your words spoke directly to me. I am so proud of you and how you continually seek HIM. HE is building you up, training you, as HE is going to use you in such a mighty outpouring either here in Okeechobee or someplace else.
ReplyDeleteI pray for you daily. Your 'plans' may not be what you wanted but I Know that I know -- HIS plans for you are going to WOW our socks off. Someday as we head to lunch .. and maybe speak to your daughter ... .on the phone and/or text, you and I are going to think back to this time of our 'trials' . .and marvel at how God carried us, redeemed us, taught us, and loved us more than we could ever imagine. I love you - dearly. This blog .. is the best Mother's Day Card . that I could ever get. I love you -
'ma' .