Trust in the Lord and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper.
Take delight in the Lord , and he will give you your heart’s desires.
Commit everything you do to the Lord.
Trust him, and he will help you.
He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun.
Be still in the presence of the Lord , and wait patiently for him to act.
Don’t worry about evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes.
Psalm 37:3-7
These Verses have been repeating in my head for a few weeks now.. "Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart's desires"... Delight. To delight is to give or to have great pleasure in or with something. I'll be honest, I haven't delighted in the Lord in a while. He's been more of the "wizard" I've been asking to give me or do certain things for me. It's easy to get caught up in the hustle of life in general, to make goals, seek them out, and then make more goals. The thing is, if those goals don't line up with where God wants you, they'll leave you feeling empty, unsatisfied, unfulfilled.
I really do want God's best. I really do want to be everything he wants me to be. But I feel like there's this other list of things that I want to do, have, or accomplish. What he's been speaking to me lately is that many of the things on that list, he wrote himself. He created me, filled me with specific wants and desires. It only makes sense to seek him first, delight in him first, as many of those desires he has placed in the path before me. What gets me is the patience to wait for them.. I lack in that. My patience department isn't a strong one.
"Commit everything you do to the Lord, Trust him and he will help you."
Easier said than done. When thinking about committing everything to the Lord, I realize how much I don't commit to him. My mind is constantly distracted by so many things, social media, school, working out, school.. and it repeats itself.
For the last several weeks, I've been in a "funk".. Took a bit but I finally figured out what's been pulling me down.
At the age of 23, I've accomplished the biggest goal I've ever placed in front of me up to this point, getting a degree, and beginning a career. The thing is.. Now that I'm here, I'm unsure of what the next major goal is. God's teaching me to trust him DAILY.. a dear friend reminded me once that when we pray the Lord's Prayer we say "Give us this day our DAILY bread.." Not a weeks worth or a months worth or a years worth.. DAILY. Give us enough to get through THIS day.. God asks us to trust him, to let him bear our burden. It's sometimes crazy to think of our future as a burden, but when we stress about the details we can't control, or that are too far ahead, we make our future stressful. We tell God that we don't trust him enough to HAVE it, so we must worry.
It's kind of scary, SCRATCH THAT, REALLY scary to get to the point you needed to, to realize that there's another point you're headed towards.. You just can't see it yet. I literally have no idea what's next for me. I know that right now I'm teaching and I'm coaching. I'm investing in the lives of the teens put in front of me, while seeking Jesus to give me just what I need each day. And I'm learning, that that's enough.
Right now life for me is a transition. As weird as it sounds having a steady schedule and responsibilities to more people than my parents has been weird/fun/exciting/terrifying all at the same time. It's also scary to realize that the thing you're doing now, you won't be doing forever like you thought originally. I know there's something more I'm to be pursuing, my journey doesn't end here.. You might be thinking "DUH you're 23! You're journey is just beginning!" And as much as I know that in theory, I honestly figured I'd get in a classroom, and would have found my (forever) calling. What I'm finding is that it's my calling, for now.. I know now that the future holds a few new paths for me... What? I have no idea. So with this new strain of blog...be prepared for many posts about uncertainty, doubt, and a faith because I have a feeling that this transition is going to be full of all those things and more!
At the age of 23, I've accomplished the biggest goal I've ever placed in front of me up to this point, getting a degree, and beginning a career. The thing is.. Now that I'm here, I'm unsure of what the next major goal is. God's teaching me to trust him DAILY.. a dear friend reminded me once that when we pray the Lord's Prayer we say "Give us this day our DAILY bread.." Not a weeks worth or a months worth or a years worth.. DAILY. Give us enough to get through THIS day.. God asks us to trust him, to let him bear our burden. It's sometimes crazy to think of our future as a burden, but when we stress about the details we can't control, or that are too far ahead, we make our future stressful. We tell God that we don't trust him enough to HAVE it, so we must worry.
It's kind of scary, SCRATCH THAT, REALLY scary to get to the point you needed to, to realize that there's another point you're headed towards.. You just can't see it yet. I literally have no idea what's next for me. I know that right now I'm teaching and I'm coaching. I'm investing in the lives of the teens put in front of me, while seeking Jesus to give me just what I need each day. And I'm learning, that that's enough.
Right now life for me is a transition. As weird as it sounds having a steady schedule and responsibilities to more people than my parents has been weird/fun/exciting/terrifying all at the same time. It's also scary to realize that the thing you're doing now, you won't be doing forever like you thought originally. I know there's something more I'm to be pursuing, my journey doesn't end here.. You might be thinking "DUH you're 23! You're journey is just beginning!" And as much as I know that in theory, I honestly figured I'd get in a classroom, and would have found my (forever) calling. What I'm finding is that it's my calling, for now.. I know now that the future holds a few new paths for me... What? I have no idea. So with this new strain of blog...be prepared for many posts about uncertainty, doubt, and a faith because I have a feeling that this transition is going to be full of all those things and more!
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